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Same way i deal with stress.
World champion at disassociation here. I can zone out like the best of them and have an anxiety attack at the SAME TIME! Then I’ll slowly stress eat over a couple hours, then regret doing that for a bit (you can speedrun this step with lactose intolerance and dairy products).
Alternatively, loud music on headphones to drown out the sounds of existence and doing chores.
Before I started HRT, I’d been repressing my dysphoria for so long that I’d just accepted my constant state of mild depression as being “normal”.
I’d do some crossdressing at home which helped, but I didn’t have the courage to do so in public. I just let my hair grow long and painted my nails, the best I could manage under the circumstances.
I grew the hair out on a whim (was told I’d have to wear a hair net even if I was bald so I hit “fuck it” and grew it as long as I could) during my first job put of high school, and found it very comfortable and it made me happy
Before I transitioned? Eating disorders, disassociating, isolating. Since then, seeing the positive changes to my body, and the control I exercise over it has helped resolve it most days. There are still times I feel intensely dysphoric (whenever I voice train, when a stranger with the best of intentions misgenders me), but in those cases I usually let myself feel it (rather than bottling it up) and it’ll pass.
By hiding the thing that triggers me the most-my chest. Oversized hoodies every day of the year
Before I knew it was dysphoria? Dissociate by daydreaming and doing anything to shift my attention away from it. Now that I know it’s dysphoria? Like any other kind of anxiety: acknowledge it, label it, breathe, check in with yourself, change what you can right now, and plan to change what you can’t.
The closer I get to my HRT intake appointment, the more I’ve started to notice my negative thoughts and feelings, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and when I look ahead, I feel invigorated. The road is long and filled with obstacles, but all the signs say I’m on the right track.
In the worst ways humanly possible, mostly.
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I don’t, I just feel awful all of the time :)
Mood. HRT mostly fixed that though~
I used to be a complete recluse because of dysphoria. It was lonely, but the alternative was extreme disassociation while being with other people or out in public. It really sucked.
I still get dysphoria now. Some days are worse than others. I meticulously choose what I wear when I interact with other people. I have about three “safe” outfits.
The worst time for dysphoria is when I go to the gym. Can’t layer stuff or wear as much shape wear or else it’s too hot and sweaty. I just don’t go on bad dysphoria days.
Before I was able to resolve most of it, it was mostly depersonalisation. I avoided letting it get to me by feeling nothing at all.
These days, the dysphoria that remains isn’t life defining. It’s much easier to deal with
