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    I came out to the one person that matters most, and everything was OK. Like better than OK. What was the point of all that internal torture I put myself through? Finally feel like I can breathe again.

    Still think the gods are having a huge laugh at my expense over the timing though.

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      Aww, that’s great <3 I’m so glad it went well.

      Edit: actually now that I come to think of it, the timing is probably not a coincidence – it’s the Streisand effect. All the transphobic noise at the moment has pushed transgender people into the public consciousness, and that has probably helped a lot of people figure themselves out. At least, I think it had a big part in cracking my egg. So thanks, crazy people!

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        In retrospect, it’s funny to me now that I was feeling afraid and sick to my stomach to the point of shaking and nearly throwing up, and their response was just so relaxed and cool. I asked if they weren’t surprised and the answer was no.

        Like… WHO AM I FOOLING? ONLY MYSELF? DID EVERYONE ELSE GET THE MEMO FIRST?

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          8 hours ago

          Exactly the same here. Screwing myself up preparing to potentially destroy my family, and the response was “well, yeah, you’ve always had that kind of air about you”

          The closet is made of glass, people :3