Am adhd and autistic, so i never had a lot of friends, but i kind of learned to keep going with it.
Right now, i am very tired, but also hopeful because all my essay writing training is starting to show up.
My dreams, such as writing novels and creating an entire video game about my personal universe, seem to be more and more feasible on reality.
Also, my social training allowed me to meet some very nice persons, not in social standarts, but genuinely for me.
So I am as always lonely, tired and silent, but the world seem always to show more and more colours to me, which is nice.
(also maybe just because i stopped drinking the social media crap and the worldnews junk food, but hey, it’s what gives us the most anxiety for no reason, so why bother)
Paper jounal may not be backable up, but they are not affected by bit rot, cannot be tracked or detected by any means, they are partially or totally destroyable, and helps freeing the pressuring throughts from your head, so you would be less vulnerable under torture.
Also, one can log what you type on a device even before it is encrypted (if we assume the worst scenario). So i think keeping a paper diary, even with the comfort flaws, stay the safest option (if you hide it well and doesn’t reveal its existence).