Peta expressed genuinely loving her from day one. On the train, when he’s holding her he even tells her about how he felt and why he threw the bread, feeling it was selfishly motivated.
Hers were confused, and she remarks that maybe, had life been normal, she could have developed feelings for him or gale for real, but because she didn’t have the chance she’s never sure which part of the show she even believes in. She accepts by the end that he loves her and that she loves him as much as she feels she’s capable of after all the trauma
It’s definitely been more than a decade. But I keyed back in to get back in the headspace for the prequel book she released. I recommend it too, if you haven’t checked it out. Not quite the same tone, but I liked where she went with it.