Definitely the latter one

True!

The monk part is actually a great idea, I’ve never thought about that. I’m not sure if there are availabilities around me though

Thanks for the tips and encouragement, I give my best!

Thanks for the tip but I think I’m probably too sensitive for that. But I’m considering it

yep

I didn’t go here voluntarily. I wasn’t able to live on my own because of my depression and the only alternative would’ve been to be homeless. I didn’t want to be here since day one but it’s putting me down so much that I’m feeling incapable of getting out.

My life in a nutshell

Awesome idea. Thanks a lot!

I guess I have a new life goal now!

That’s a great idea that I actually haven’t thought about before. If I ever have the money of realizing that I will definitely try that out in a summer.

I think COVID destroyed our world. It hasn’t been the same as before since…

But maybe our depression/anxiety is coming from the fact that we don’t live in communes. Maybe this might be the cure when being deeper connected to people and nature?

Love the advice! Thank you!

That will probably only make me more paranoid or drive me into psychosis. I had very traumatic experiences with synthetically laced weed.

99% of the time my realistic mind knows it basically doesn’t matter at all but my subconscious/overthinking OCD mind always thinks it will extremely matter and affect my whole life. And that latter one is what’s keeping me to obsessively make myself crazy about it.

I can relate to that!

If I could I would help them😞

It’s blocking me. It’s like I’m not worthy enough when I still live here. And living here makes me feel so uncomfortable I wouldn’t be able to talk to someone. I’m even afraid to leave my room because I could encounter my dad.

I don’t wanna talk to anyone while I’m living with my parents and am in this miserable situation.

But even if I would ever get out of here I don’t have anyone to talk to. I went to like 5 different high schools since they put me into facilities at different locations in my teens.

Before I got taken away from home I had so many friends as a kid and literally met friends every single day. But over the years I lost contact to every single one of them and haven’t talked to them in many years.

I’m generally not a guy who keeps friends for their lifetime. It was never that deep. When I went to a new school I had these friends for a few months and then never talked to them again.