That’s kind of what I mean. Usually resisting torment like being in a war zone or some injury is done so because you know that eventually the pain will go away. The war will end one way or the other or your injury will heal. “breaking” is like when soldiers go into shell shock. You’ve just endured so much physical and mental anguish that your body just shut you down and made you numb to the world. This is bad if you eventually recover from your injuries because PTSD can ruin the rest of your life even after the physical pain has gone away. In this case, though, you’re in hell for the rest of eternity as far as you know, better to just let your body go into that shell shock state and numb as much pain as you can.

I feel like the key to being in hell is to break right away. You’re in there forever, no matter how much of a tolerance you could build up here you’re going to break down eventually. And in the long run it won’t matter if you held out for ten minutes or ten years.

Having watched interviews with him it’s an interesting case study cause you can kind of track how he just fell into it. He didn’t start as a rich kid, he lucked into the money with Bitcoin and started making random high-budget YouTube videos (his videos were always on the slop spectrum but in the beginning they were genuine). Over the years he has just devolved into chasing the views. He thought (and probably still thinks) that he does it for fun and it’s just his nature to follow the views but it’s pretty clear to anyone watching that fame via YouTube has changed him significantly.

Mmmmmm… Borderline raw cookies.